Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012!
I don't want to give the Idea that I don't like anything about myself, that could not be any further from the truth. There a many qualities about myself I know are good and would never want to change. I am loyal, loving, giving and trust worthy. I love to laugh and talk to people, I will listen to anyone about anything and I think and have been told I give good advice, I like most people in this world am much better at guiding others lives then guiding my own.
But just like others there is much I want to change about myself. My younger sister and I were talking a while back about how interesting our Dad's story would be. she said she thought it would worth reading and he should think about writing it down. I started to look at my story and realized its not worth putting in a book and I don't even wont to read it. I tend to caution on the safe side, I live in a very happy safety bubble and though many people have tried to pull me out of it, I seem to be more stubborn then any of them. I am not looking to become a wild child but I am looking to be different.
I am starting 2012 out at my heaviest weight, I don't want to tell anyone the number but the first step to changing is admitting what is wrong. 01/01/12 I weigh 249lbs! That is not out of shape that is the fast track to death. This will be my largest goal this year, my plan is simple and on paper looks hard to fail, but paper isn't real life. Eat healthy, work out 5 out of 7 day a week. See seems simple right! I also plan on doing a little yoga every night before I go to bed, I do not have any problems with sleep but I do have a problem with stress the yoga is less about weight loss and more about stress management. That brings me to my January project, I work in payroll and this is the worst time of the year for anyone who does payroll. 2011 is over but I now have to get 2011 taxes done, W2s and tax returns done for over 270 clients and their employees. O ya and still run payroll every day for those clients who are making all their changes for 2012. One year is finishing up at the same time the next year is starting and its a overlap of about 2 months. So very very stressful and this year end I want and will learn to do something I have never done well, manage my stress.
Two big and hard goal to work on; weight and stress but no point in not jumping in with both feet. This is going to be a hard year for me but I plan on looking back and reading this chapter with a smile on my face this is the chapter I over come my person issues.
